Morning Blessing

Good morning my Love,

I am little late today but I am here finally that's all it counts.I didn't sleep much too good,I have lot of on my mind.
I will come later to You!
May the Lord,Creator of everlasting life and love be gentle to You and His litlle angels may guard upon Your steps.
I am sending all my personal blessings;I want You to be happy,safe and sound.

Fly my love.fly with wide open wings of Love.

Eternally your
milena 

Why do I Love You

I love You with a dancing dress or with a hat.
I love You with this or that
I love You with a n because,She is my wife.
I love You with c because,She is my dream.
I love You when You talk or not.
I love You when You smile or crying.
I love You when You fly up up to the sky and when You look into a wall paper.
I love You when You write so quicly and when You take a hike.
I love You when You are with me and when You smile to others.
I love You as a Rose love a Sun and like a stars fallin of in the Moon.
I love You as my bride,my soul mate,my teacher,my student, my friend. and above all like my Love.

Sweet dreams my beloved!
Eternally your  @>-----------

10 Days After

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Sexy Joke

   My friends,


Today is my happy day.I am so pleased to be alive,to love,to be loved...
I am happy I have two the most beautiful sites on the wode world;
Lesbian life forum at about.com
and my Danubius,forum for hearts.

This photo I did put for all of You to make You smile and little wonder..
It did send me one beautiful Anastasia,the ultimate admin on Danubius..for making me feel better.
Now I do hope that my darling will know in Her heart that She is the only one for last time.
It is just a joke to make You all happy in this world so unsecure.

 

Danubius forum

Yes,I do

True Friendship

Passion for a Rose

A Gentle Word of Creation

Take a moment and paint a picture of Your very own journey.Think about some questions and try to answer them in Yourself.
What colour is my journey?
Has a path been straight,upward,moving or circuitous?
Where am I on this path?
Where is my love one,my familly,my cooworkers,my mentors,my teachers,my students,my friends,my God?
What does my environment look like?
Now paint in Your spirit.Or You can on the paper too.Now try to consider negative components of Your life (disregard,disconnection,rejaction,death of dreams.Try to form in spirit what do You think how looks like other side of all this negativity,look positivly.God is Creator,even if You are atheist You do have Your own image of GGod.
Imagine loss turn to growth,disconnection to connection,rejaction to acceptance.
Try to put that in Your picture.
What does is look like for Creator to work all thing good in Your life?Please try to remember more of them.
What shape,what colors,what space in needed for God's transformative redeeming work?
Now You do divide a piece of paper in half by folding it down the middle.On one side paint a picture of how You see Yourself on Your worst bad hair,bloated,bags under eyes.Beside that,create an image what is God's look on You.
Use all unconventual colors,textures and images.

And in last,paint a prayer of intercession for Your Love ones.
Choose a verse or poem,even music if she likes it..anything that would mean something special and presious to Her/Him.Put it on  the bottom of Your picture.Now try to imagine words of poems or try to imagine music put in shapes,colors,textures.
If You are compelled,roll up the paintings,tie it with a bow,find one red(or white Rose) and offer it to Her/Him like a gift.
You may be very supriced when You discover in deepth of yours,that You did just paint Your first prayer.


I love You all where ever You are.
God,You know all about my paint and a Rainbow promise.
Guard me,guard them all!
Thank You!

Paint Your Prayers

    Have You ever try to paint Your prayers?
I believe that anyone can paint prayers.Sometimes in life we have difficult season,in all sorts of doing,relationships..Especially in very hard time,like loosing love ones.
Few days ago my son died.Conventional prayers seemed not to be satisfying my heart.I was bleadind indise me.My adoring one was all day with me,talking and tolking through the mails.We imagined my darling son like a bird somewhere up in the timeless world.It was good thought.I loved her for stood by me.But then came night.Night with darkness,sorrow came back,my heart was breaking and breaking.In the morning I found little white fether on my window.I did smile,in my heart I take it like a sign from my son.
Then it came more taught time;time for my transplatation of bone marrow.Few days I felt good,then my body was starting to rejeck donors marrow.I was loosing my mind.my kidneys were in bad shape after so many medications and kemo theraphy.I was alone.I am alone.We are always alone in this time.
I could not reach my voice towards God,Creator of Life,Mather Nature what ever You call them deep down in Yourself.I wanted so much to live,I thought how unffair is all that.In time when I found someone who do care,i was loosing the only thing I have,my own life.
All seemed to be black.No hope.No reason for begg anyone.No one can save me from cold death.I had terible nightmares.I refuse to take anything for sleeping.Why?I wanted to be in my own bright spirit when the death come for me.
Then I remember one beautiful thing my beloved ones told me.
She,as an artist have so inspirational thoughts.I cannot share this here with You only in one reason,I want to keep her name safe down in my Heart.
I try to imagine how to paint that what She told me.So,I did paint in my mind the most beautiful picture:
marine blue sky with no clouds..two litlle birds dancing in the air,soaring and diving like the most esquizite dancers..i knew,i knew in my heart that they were praying for my life....
I was so touched by that..I could not speak,I hardly stop to breath.My picture looks like having her own live,she looked alive..all the souden I saw many bireds coming from all of the worlds,there were doing Rainbow bouquet,like my love will say..
@ & gt .......
I did knew,that was my painting with inner child prayers.I knew,nothing can be stopped what came from eternaty,my love for Her will live endless..
So,I open my bloodly heart and let her to fly.
If She doesn't come back it would means that She never loved me in first place.
But if She come back my love with always be in Her Heart.

I do love You all!
May Lord brings You joy and Love
your friend milena

Lord bless America!

                  My Lord,

I do came here for sharing all my thoughts.One of is defenetly You,always i am keeping Your eternal Love for each and every one of us.

Last two days I am praying for all my friends who live in USA;for Mary,Achley,Melissa,Laura,KC and her darling LilBitBear,Salty,Kathy..and above all for my Cristina and her familly.
Of course I am praying for all people in America especially who are coming on my site.
Please Lord remember the Promise sealed by Rainbow in the ancient time.
I do believe in Your Love,keep my love ones safe through all times.
Amen.

Thank You Lord!

Thoughts from my Heart

When ever I come near You i calm myself.I am not sure is it really my heart or my spirit who are always coming,never leaving.Well,I know one thing for sure,I do adore You.I love this photo;it is our own pease of Paradiso.Today is a resting day,I know that You need to rest,to calm overflowing emotions.Do not be afraid I am always here.When ever You close Your eyes and look down in Your beautiful heart;You will find us there.I dd never doubt in You.You do amazed me each time when I think of You.Can I tell You one secret?You do amuze me too.Last past days was rather long,at least for me,You did have lot of fun  I do hope so.I love to thing that You were happy doing things You like.I was imagining Your moves here in this place,when I did close my eyes I was with You ,looking and smiling.I am delighted when You are smiling..ecpecially if I have something to do with Your smile.So,Love is very imaginative,I am finding all litle things through the day and sending them to You,hoping that You will smile inside Your Heart.You said that we have only one heart,so I am hoping that You do feel how much I care and love You my adorinb beloved.

I would love to make stars dancing for You but in my mind You are most esquizite dancer.It must be really exausting sometimes to do all the practising,but You love it.I do imagine that You go again on our meddow and dance for me.Yes,i was thinking lot of Your others work,sometimes I feel that You work too much but i think that I offen forgot that You have much more energy then I do.
I do miss Your writings.Well I do miss You the minute You go.Whe You go I let myself morn a little.We poets seems to have lot of emotions in our Hearts.So,my darling I am going through the world and giving them my love.I have to.I am overhelmed with it.I can't write all day to You,You will think that I lost my mind.Hmmm my mind is lost in love with one young poet,I did told You all about that.I am wondering when will I stop him doing this..Well,at least he do not do any harm,when in love,he loses his words..
Maybe I am wrong,maybe we are much stronger then them.I love Thee!

Eternally your
milena

We are not Like Others

Good morning my friend where ever You are!!

This is one of my favorite sites,the one I will chooce as site for our hearts.

They do have group at Facebook too.Did I told You that they do have radio station working full day and night,

Go and visit them,You won't be sorry!

Be happy,smile a lot and bring Your Love a Rose!at least @>------

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A Life

" A life I have is the only life I have.And this only life I have I give it to you."                       by Clara



" Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass.It is about learning how to dance on the rain." anonymous

"Sometimes our candle goes out,but in blown into flame by encounnter with other human being."      by Albert Schweitzer,MD and phylosopher

Dedication

All my writings here are dedicated to Her,Lady of my Heart,

who leads with Her Heart in everything She does.She never let Her head get in way of Her beautiful Heart.Althouh She is very young in human ages,She has taught me much more than I have tought Her.Also it is dedicated to all thoese wonderful people I had honor to met in life all around the world,who take full responsability for all their relationships.Who have attained a balance between their Hearts and heads-and therby truly lives the evelasting alive prayer: "LET THERE BE A PEACE ON EARTH AND LET IT BEGIN WITH ME!             

                             My Clara  ; Fire Guardian on DANUBIUSU;Stasha and all You there on forum,beutiful people on Facebook,my friends from everywhere I solute You all.Thank You all for your love,thoughts and making this life on Mother Earth better,BRIGHTER and already little pieces of Paradise.

DARJA The Girl who Wants to Live

There lives young girl named DARJA.She has leuchemia and she needs money for transplatation.Many of us already knows that I have the same illness.My days are numbered but She is young,I begg You to look at this link bellow where all is described.You need to take Your mobile phone and send SMS with this massage: BN DARJA;(write Your name and surrname).That is all,it takes one minute and with this You're saving Her life.May Creator of Love bless  You.call this numbers:IRELAND:97605/2.50eu*MACEDONIA:14193/106,20mkd*DEUTSCHLAND:82888/1,99eu*

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       Good night to all of You,do not forget to share this with Your friends and relatives.Thank You Danubiuse.Darja,we all loves YOU!Be blessed!

The Rose and the Thorn

" It is useless to hate all roses if You are hurt by one thorn."

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Thank You Danubius and Staša!

This is something I found on one very special forum called Danubius.There is one admin there,named Anastasia,Stasha,for short.They helped me in times when I was down,feeling very weakly,unsured of Beauty in this world.I found them and all was changing.Because mostly of this very special admin who loves people regardless of nationality,ethnicity,colour of skin,sexual orientasion.This is my way of telling them all at Danubius,THANK YOU for being there!

The Woman who runs with Woulfs

                                                   There is a woman,very special one,very presious in my life.Each time when I come beside Her I feel so calm,like when You find Yourself in a dream come true position.

I have to be quiet and to wait for Her all time long no matter when She come,because when She do come,everything is changing.All She really do is love and care for me.I am blessed in time when She is here.Do You want to know how does she looks like?Just like this woman on the picture.She has beautiful eyes and expression of her face is so charming.Like a dreamer;well my very special Lady has artistic spirit.She do all sort of things connected with art,she is poet,ballerina dancer,composer,playing piano..But above all she is romantic,very emotional,sensitive,sincere,pleasing,affectionate.Well,in Her approach towards romantic relationships She is immpressionabile ,higly imaginative and have total care for nurture Her mate in every way possible.Sometimes She is changable in her thoughts.I believe that she long for security from person She loves,at least I feel very close with her emotionally.I think She ishypersensitive and She is capabile to brood for hours and days if Her mate hurts Her feelings.I have feelings that is why She have little tendency to remain aloof and at distance,rather then get hurt or God forbid,negelected by love.She adores words,moves,Nature,dance,helping others,working in team,dreaming,Sun and "aqua".I do believe that she adores me too.It is special to be Her lady.

52 Ways to love Your Love

1. Tell Her at least five times a day how much You love Her.
2. Send Her a list with 21 reason for loving Her (every month made a new list)
3.Write a poem in Her honor
4.Cherish Her deep in Your Heart
5.Give Her Your blessing no matter when (from awekening till sleeping time )
6.Love Her:deeply,honestly,trully,uncondicionally
7.Be romantic even if it is for Her only
8.Try to make stars dancing for Her smile
9.Send her little love notes
10.Remember the first time we fall for each other
11.Make Her dreams come true
12.Be what ever She asked You to be (even fool or clown if it makes Her happy )
13.Send Her little macig cards with music she loves
14.Send Her smiles and jokes so She can smile at least twice a day
15.Send Her quotes from author she admire (or Her own! )
16.Send Her Roses (even electronic one @>------ )
17.Pray for Her well and health
18.Bless each and every minute You are with Her (don't do that aloud!)
19.Write down Her wishes and make them true.
20.Talk with Her in time when She wants
21.Give Her peace when She does need it.
22.Propose Her (be wise)
23.Make plans for recreate Your first date
24.Buy an "I love You" card and mail it to Your spose at work
25.Choose a book,then read it out loud to each other in the evenings.
26.Rent a movie (old one,black and white,exp."Brief encounter") and watch it with Her in minds
27.Be adventourous-meet for lunch at an ethnic restaurant (exp.Indian food..)
28.Make a snack for both of You (look after She likes )
29.Light a candle with each meal
30.Put down everything to greet Her at the end of day
31.Compliment Your love in front of friends and familly
32.Leave a favorite snack or sweets on the seats of Your love's place (in train or..)
33.Fill Her with joy and happiness
34.Get Her pajamas out and lay them on the bed
35.At the movie,share the armrest
36.Save the last piece of fruit for Your adoring wife
37.Squeeze toothpaste on Her's toothbrush when You're doing Your own.
38.Get to know all She likes. (and specially She doesn't like)
39.When She lies down on the couch,get Her a pillow
40.Shower together and wash Her back
41.Next time You shop for something,let Her vote on what to buy.
42.Hide love notes around the home,in different e-mails where She will find it.
43.On cold mornings,go ahead and warm the house.
44.Hold hands instead of holding the remote control.
45.Suprice Her nicely
46.Do not put away stuff of Her,guard them.
47.When one of You is indoors and other outside,knock on the window and blow a kiss.
48.Kiss Her at stoplights.
49.Get involved in all she is interesting.
50.When You disagree,always acknowledge the possibility that You could be wrong.
51.Blessed the day You found Her.
52.Be Her best friend,mate,kindered soul,anything at all just for posibility to be WITH HER.

(in an honor to my beloved whife and best friend <3 always my Love,eternally your milena )

Are You afraid of darkness my Love?

My beloved darling Clara,

I was wondering are You afraid of darkness in life?
I so sometimes.I didn't before we met,strange how can we become vonoureble since we do not live alone in the world.
People my Love can be very mean especialy when they think that they have some rights to become mean.I am afraid of darkness from there heart.
I started to pray for them.But it is hard.

Beyond the Words

Beyond the time and all the happening each and every time when I come here I find myself in fairy tale.Thank You!<3

Woman's History Art

Do not

Do not my Love.
I know Your Heart.

Eternally your

My beloved Clara,





When I look into Your heart I find pure Love.Love timeless like our souls are.Love which I try so many times to give,never resieved.

Looking into Your eyes,I find my existance,my reason to be alive,to go on,to breath.You were my breath in the afternoon.I send You out because I wanted You to be safe.I wanted You to breath for my life.

Whole day today I feel You,like You never leave.

I know that You came to stay for ever.Each time I feel so proud,so happy.

I do belong to You and You are my the most loved and cherished Lady i ever had in life.You is my everything.

I feel since I found You that I have never been loved before.My beloved ,my darling,made me feel loved with each and every word You wrote.

You were wind beneath my wings,You were my real true friend.But the moment when You gave me Your Love, You become the most wonderful and presious person of my life.



Eternally your,

Sparrow

























In Pula,10th August 2011.














 

Your Name

My beloved,

You hold the keys of my heart.
I watch the sun rising like a rainbow
Out of the ancient world
And shout Your Name
To the heavens.

Eternally your
Milena 

Why?

Why?
Just tell me why?

My prayer

Oh God bestows Your invisible hand on my head, I pray that reproduces faith in love and glory, braided Your invisible fingers in my hair, strengthen, I pray and hope for the glory of Yours, I share Your comfort and forgiveness, send me a breeze of the Holy Spirit, the perfect I love of Yours God, please hear my prayers for each and every souls I am carring in my heart.We all need Your love for today. O MY GOD,WE ALL  NEED  YOUR TOUCH!
Please,bless us all with Your forgiveness!
Amen.

Thank You,my Lord!

Life journey

Alone stranger wandering in silence
 between mountains and sea dream and the time.
 Restrains it rain, wind, various concerns
 Protection requires the alien empty bags.
 Pointed to the sky view of its moderate
 Hoping the sun waiting for a flash drag.
 Sun shine on the face of passengers
 power will give way to search.
 Search for, the fulfillment of their dreams
 who will follow the path of my life.

I have confession to make

Today I met a glence.
Today I met one open heart.
Today I met myself in one eye.
I asked a sunny day why I am so sad?
Why are the days of Sunshine sad as a snow of sorrow to me?
Today I met a vision from my dreams of deceased don't yes of mine.
Should I play a life a compromise?
No,I can't.
I don't know does She things that I am just a clown
with smile on my face and whole in my broken heart?
I can't pretend that I am all fine.
Am I a parasite that lives by loving all what is beutiful
and escape from sadness of my never loved heart?
Sad analyze of myself.
Sad picture of lost light house.
Is it really posible that I can't exist without Her?
Did I justify my conffesion from the biggining?

However,the true is that I have met today a glance and one open Heart.
That I have met myself in one different eye.

My love,my life

My love,my life

Today I was beliving that we can find the way out of ours pain,wounds,sorrow..even regrets.
It does tearing me apart knowing that You chose not to forget.I din t need Your forgiveness in words..
Why can't You open Your beutiful Heart once more to love beyond the pain and sorrow?
Why my love?
I did gave You life time promise that I shall never take it back.
All our sollitude are just our weakness.
We need to be angels to each other,to give each other consolation,compassion and strenght.Don't You see my love?
Theere is a inner twilight zone in our hearts that we ourselfs can not see.Even when we know a lot about ours gifts and weaknesses,our aspirations and ambitions,our motives..large part of ourselfs remain in the shadow of consciousness.So,we will always remain partialy hidden to ourselfs.
People who love us,can often see clearly our twilight zones better than we can.The way we are seen and understood my loved ones is different from the way we see and understand ourselfs.
We will never fully know the significanse of our present in the lifes of our friends and love ones.
That's amezing grace,a grace that calls us not only to be humility,more compassion,but to a deep trust in thoese who love us.
Somewhere I do know that without silence words loose theire meaning,that without listening spearkling no longer heals and that without distance closeness can not we'll be cure.
My great hope is to laugh with You once more.
Wish You silent night.God bless You!

To my caring friend

My beloved,
You make me happy each and every time You come near me..I feel in my heart Your steps.my heart is widely open and listen very carefully because You come in silence.As You don t want to wake me up.I want to be aweken by You,I want to be awere of Your presence.
I love You so much and each move You make.
You was more than a confessor or therapist,You are my kindered soul.You offered me God's forgiveness.With You, I could share my solitude,my silence and my prayers.
With You,I could look at the sky and say:"Isn t it wonderful!"
With You I didn t have to say or do something special.
With You I could be still and know that God is there with both of us.
I do belong to another world that belong to God.
So,I am free to speek even when my words are not recived;
Free to act even when my actions are critisized,ridiculed or considered useless..
I am convinced that I will trully be able to love when I fully belive that I am loved far beyond its boundaries.
As,Henry J.M.Nouwen once said:
"Dare to love and to be real friend.The love You give and resive is reality that will lead You closer and closer to God as well as thoese whom God has given You to love."
Tu eres in mi corazon para siempre!

"Life is my gift"

This art belong to very good friend of mine.Her name is Clara and she is one of the most wonderful person I have ever met.
Besides doing such beutiful and expresive work she is also a very tallented ballet dancer,composer,writer of poetry and prose,teacher to younger ones...
She is feminist and doing lot of research in history of woman's rights.Quite a very interesting pilgrim on her own life journey.
She has deep compassion in her beutiful heart and she's one of my true friend at this time of life.
I am very proud for having a privileg for knowing her,for being close to her soul&heart..we do understand each other very often without a words.
She send me this pease  of work in very special time in my life,trying without words to give me sight at presious gift of life itself.In time when I was losing my beloved,my hope and almost my desire for living.
Her Nightingale from the picture looks like her own heart.Once she gave her heart to Nightingale..it stayed in her life forever.She gave freedom to Nightingale once..and in return,she have Nightingale forever.
I am gretful for her life.I do belive You will hear very soon her name bacause when You give Yourself openly to the world,whole Universe unite to bring You into Your own dream come true.many reached stars.
Fly,my dear..fly without a fier,Your heart is going in right direction,towards the stars.Give Yourself to each and every living soul and be blessed on Your journey!
So,I wish her love&joy in life and

Woman in love

Life is a moment to space
When the dream is gone
it's a lonelier place

I kiss the morning goodbye
But down inside, you know we never know why
The road is narrow and long
When eyes meet eyes and the feeling is strong
I turn away from the wall,
I stumble and fall, but I give you it all

Chrous:
I am a woman in love
And I'd do anything to get you into my world and hold you within
It's a right, I defend, over and over again
What do I do?

With you eternally mine
In love there is no measure of time
We planned it all at the start
That you and I live in each other's heart
We may be oceans away
You feel my love, I hear what you say.
No truth is ever a lie,
I stumble and fall, but I give you it all.

(Chrorus)

Ooooh Yes I am a woman in love and I'm talking to you,
You know I know how you feel, what a woman can do.
It's a right, I defend, over and over again.
What do I do.
I'm a woman in love
And I'll do anything to get you into my world
And hold you within
It's a right I defend ....


You all are much smarter then I and You will know the authorThoese one who knows me in realitly, knows that I lost very good part of my memory cause of medical tretmant.I am not apologizing to the author cause thoese words are meanted to be shared with all who are in love..I am just woman in love.In the most beutiful girl in the world..I lost all my memory.Only I want to remember is to love You all.
Thank each and every one of You who came here today..and many days before.
My love,I feel You as allways when ever You're near me.Thank You for loving me.

My new status

Yesterday I was givenn one sentence which open my eyes widely.It say:
" HEART ARE MAENT TO BE BROKEN   OPEN. "

I want all of You start to think about that quote.First I thought it was about Jesus Christ open heart.
I went out for a while and looked in the sky above me.
It was about endless love allways open for all it comes in life:smile,joy,laugh,gentle tuch as well as to pain,sorrow,tears.It should be allways open,hugging each and every person in the world.
Oh yes,that's the only true love in life.
After each and every sorrow comes a joy.
After each and every tears comes a laugh.
After each and every death comes a new life.
After each and every selfish love comes Divane Love.

I am so greatful for all it comes in life,every pain,every wounds,every sorrow,every tears.Like I am greatful to a joy,smile,laugh.
So,I will  never ever apologize for showing my feelings,my broken and open heart because when I do so,I am allways apologizing for the truth and love inside me.
I don t want to apologize for being weak,in loved,unsecure,for wanting more( when You love You want the best from youself to give&share,to reach a shining Star,to catch the rainbow.When You don't - You do not love. )
As Dom Helder Camara once said:
"When we are dreaming alone-it is only a dream.
When we are dreaming together it is biginning of reality."

At last,please do not mind if I let myself and put litlle message to someone who is going to know it is for her:
Mi amor,mi vida te quierro para siempre.
Yo no puedo algo.Yo no puedo vivir sin Amor.
Gratzias,mi corazon per todo.

Beutiful She

From this moment on...
I am lost in this world where I do not belong.
I never did,ectually  belong anywhere.
My home was allways somewere in the Heaven.
I was a dreamer whole my life.
My song was "Fly,fly,litlle one.."
I thought that I was a bird with broken wings so
I had never belong here..my heart belongs to Sky.
I am Sappho with broken heart.
For a moment I was happy I dreamed the most beutiful dream
Were You were my Lady.
I felt young,happy,in love
I belived in each and every word You said to me.
I even planned the most incredible plans
Crossing the Ocean was just one litlle part of my plan.
Other was to ask You to merry me.
I wake up.
Alone.
Old.
Time to close the my heart.
Time to fly away.
Time for going home.
Wish me,bon voayagge.

 My love,

That was song I shall allways ( para siempre ) keep in my heart.
Shania Twain
"From this moment on"

(I do swear that I ll allways be there.
I d give anything and everything and I will allways care.
Throught weakness and strength,happiness and sorrow,for better and worce,
I will love You with every beat of my heart. )

From this moment life has begun
From this moment You are the one
Right beside You is were I belong
From this moment on.
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for Your happiness
And for Your love I d give my last breath
From this moment on.
I give my hand to You with all my heart
Can t wait to live my life with You,can t wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of You.
From this moment as long as I live
I will love You,I promiss You this
There s nothing I wouldn t give
From this moment on.
YOU ARE THE REASON THAT I BELIVE IN LOVE
AND YOU RE THE ANSWER TO MY PRAYERS FROM UP ABOVE
All we need is just two of us
My dreams come true because of You.
From this moment as long as I live
I will love You.I promise You this
There s nothing I wouldn t give
From this moment
I will love You as long as I live
From this moment on.

       

Mala godišnjica

Danas je naša mala godišnjica.
Kao i uvijek nedostaješ mi.Pokušavam promijeniti sebe da bih postala dostojna Tebe.Svaka Tvoja riječ u meni živi neki svoj posebni život..nastavljajući tamo gdje si Ti stala.
Sanjam da si moja i da sve riječi izrečene imaju neko  posebno značenje.Osjećam da sam pogriješila i da nikada više neću moći vratiti ono vrijeme koje nas je oplemenilo,obogatilo,promijenilo.
Nosim svoje srce na dlanu pružajući Ti ga..više me ne trebaš,znam to,sada je to samo neka bivša priča nikada dokraja ispričana.
Happy aniversary mi amor,yo te quierro para siempre!

Love

"Love ,means never having to say you re sorry."  Erich Segal
That s one of the most beutiful sentense I have ever heard in my life.When I first heard that line I was 12 years old girl.I went to six class,it was 09.th July.That was the last day of my childhood.
Day after I was raped by one familly" friend".
Today,40 years later- I remember that line.For the first time in my life I don t feel guilt over that happening.
Today,40 years later-I forgive my rapist.
Today,40 years later-I feel free and I fully understand Segal s wonderful meaning of love.

To You

You came into my life.You were my only reason for being alive,the only one who makes me fight with this last fight for my health.
I miss you in every minute when we are not together.
It was hard for me this last days from my birthday.I have no clue what shall we do.
I knew before that I don t have anyone close to me.Now..hmm I can t live without you any more.
I love you with all my heart,I need your smile to go on.
I am very weak for thoese last days,it s hard even to write..all I can is thinking on you.
Don t ever let me down cause I will not know any more how to go on.
I am not the one I used to be,all I need is to sleep in your arms.
I am forgetting many things,I am so affraid that you will forget me one day.
If you do that I shall have no reason for fight any more.
In this world of mine you are the true.So,I am begging you again:
Stay with me!para siempre mi amor te quierro.

I miss Your laugh

What ever  I do,where ever I go: I do miss your laugh.
I do belive that Land of laugh sleep on your mouth.Sometimes,when I am very calm I do hear it in my ears..It makes me happy,makes me so alive.
My beloved,thank you for making me happy,loved and alive.


Što god da činim,gdje god da krenem:nedostaje mi Tvoj osmjeh.
Ja stvarno vjerujem da Zemlja smješka spava na Tvojim isnama.Koji puta,kada sam jako mirna čujem ga u mojim ušima.Čini me sretnom,tako živom.
Voljena moja,hvala Ti što me činiš sretnom,voljenom i živom.

Homofobi

Sinoć mi se dogodilo nešto veoma neugodno i za mene neshvatljivo.Nešto prije ponoći sam dobila obavijest da se "nađemo" u ponoć u molitvi da se ne održi Gay Pride u Zagrebu.Otišla sam odmah na stranicu gdje su me iznenadili,ražalostili,uvrijedili.odmah su  uklonili sa glavne stranice moj odgovor u kome sam ih pozivala na Ljubav,mir,toleranciju,na svačije pravo na izbor.Diskusiju se nastavila iza pogleda javnosti.Oni su pljuvali po pripadnicima zajednice LGBT nazivajući nas degenericima,razvratnima i luđacima.Tražili su da se ukine pravi istospolnih zajednica i svega što je Zakonom o istospolnim zajednicama dopušteno.
Ono što je najgore bilo,među njima se nalazila osoba za koju sam vjerovala da mi je prijateljica,koja je otvarala vrata svoga doma kada bih dolazila u metropolu,sa kojom sam razgovala satima i koja bi me trebala poznavati.Koja dobro zna što sam u životu sve prošla.
Inače,nikada u životu nisam prisustvovala ni u jednom Gay Pride-u,sinoć sam požalila što sam bolesna i ne mogu biti prisutna.
Ovo nisu ljudi koji vjeruju u istoga Boga kao ja.
Moj Bog je Otac kome smo svi djeca i koji nas bezuvjetno voli.
I zato Bože,molim Te zaštiti i budi danas uz one koje se kleveće,kojima se izruguje,koje se pljuje po ulicama našega glavnog grada.Jer Ti si Oče i naš Otac!Pomozi svima koji su ranjeni i odbačeni da ponosno podignu glave i da se zaljube samo u Tebe!
Hvala Ti Bože moj!

I am hurt

It s so easy to hurt someone who is standing so close to You.
I never had understanding for that  kind of behaviour.
I allways thought that lesbian are more cereful,more kind,more understanding.At last that they are more woman then others.
I was wrong for putting lesbian on the pedestal.
Or maybe I am just too hurt.
It s not easy to coop with something like this.I need to hide myself.I don t want to argue with you about our rights to dissagree with something,anything.
You above all should know that.
You said that we need dialogue for progress to occur.Well,maybe you didn t mean it refair to everyone.Maybe it s for thoese you choose to have dialogue.
I really didn t need history lesson about human rughts in America.
Before I answer to anybody I look upon to whom  am I answering.Not everyboday can and will understand everything I want to share and say.But we re different.
I don t get from were did you saw I was condemning anybody,anything.Honestlly I am not that person at all.I love woman to much and I care too much to be able to condemn them.It was strange for thinking that you need to explain me what does homophobe do in there lifes.Did you really red what I wrote about part of my experianse?
Maybe you are right.maybe you wasn t answering only to me.
I will get over your answer in time.Time do recover all our wounds.
I wish You all the best in life!
with respect and love,m. 

my "NO" to Gay Pride

My name is Milena Nikolić.I have 52 years  and whole my life I have been lesbian.Proud for being lesbian.Proud for embracing being lesbian with whole my heart,body,mind and soul.I belive in love,God and human rights for each and everyone on Earth.
All my life I stood for my rights to be lesbian.I payed very high price for this moment.Being honest to myself and to all others I do not separate my everyday life from on line life.
I made lot of wrong choises and I am awere of it.I am far of being perfect.
More then half od my life I lived upon others rules like many abused woman did.
I don t want to be abuse any more.I am not going to give them that right any more.I have my own life,my own rules and I shall make my own dessisions.
I don t Gay Pride to be proud,to be happy,to help others,and to do my share for LGBT community.My door is allways open to anybody.
I do love you all that s my Pride,that s my everyday march,my Parade!
I went thought the hell in my life.
I was at psychiatry as young girl cause I decleare myself of being lesbian.
I was disownd by my familly cause I decleare myself as besbian.
I was abused 18 lond years by my ex husbant cause being lesbian.
I lost my motherrights for children by Court cause  I am lesbian.
I was priessoned cause I decleare myself as lesbian.
I lost most of my  friends while I was lesbian.
I was throwned out of my original Church cause I am lesbian.
I was throwned out of my carismatic group cause I am lesbian.
I was out all my life and payed for being out.
Being lesbian is not joinning Gay Pride,my all life is lesbian march.
You need to stand up and recognise youself as an lesbian.No one else can or is able to fight for you.
God bless you all!

You needed me by Miss.A.Murray

http://youtu.be/QrOdxw5CHX8


I have no intension to brake wirh author wrights which are reserved.If I have to remove it,please let me know.
I wanted to share with all of You this beutiful song I heard today early in the morning on You Tube site. 

Djevojčica Leana

Sada san već pomalo umorna.Vrijeme za odlazak na spavanje je davno prošlo.
Težak mi je jučer bio dan.Još uvijek se oporavljam od njega.Pokušavam ne razmišljati da sama osoba lako čini pogreške.
Srela sam jučer jednu djevojčicu.Zove se Leana.Ima 9 godina,prekrasan osmjeh i leukemiju.Sjedele smo tako u čekaonici zajedno.Ispričala mi je da ima dvije velike želje,da pojede jedan veliki sladoled od vanilije i da njezina mama rodi zdravu bebu.Gledala je u mene i stalno pjevušila:"...zelena je livada daleko...".Osluškivala sam je i razmišljala od kuda ona zna tu taku staru pjesmu iz mjuzikla "Jalta,Jalta".
Onda su je pozvali da uđe u ordinaciju.Mahnula mi je rukom i rekla da ćemo se vidjeti.
Sat vremena kasnije iznijeli su je na kolicima.
Kada zaklopim oči vidim i dalje njezin osmjeh.
Zašto Bože?

Laku Ti noć želim voljena moja

Ma gdje god bila,ma s kime god bila,želim Ti laku i mirnu noć.
Poželjela bih Ti sebe u ovoj Tvojoj noći ali ja ne znam da li da to želim ili ne želim.Nikada Ti ne bih mogla poželjeti nešto loše a nisam sigurna da sam ja "dobro"za imati me u životu.
O da,jesam dobra sa riječima ali život traži puno više od lijepih riječi,želja i snova.
Ti si poklonila mi svoje povjerenje,djevojčice,ali ja Te molim budi u životu oprezna.Posebno budi oprezna sa mnom.Ta ipak,ja sebe jako dobro znam.
Kako su drugi u životu tražili ono loše u meni,naučila sam se skrivati od njih i davala sam im to loše.
Ti u meni uvijek vidiš ono najljepše,nemoćna sam pred Tobom i darovala bih Ti sve.
Drugi su zahtijevali moje tijelo,oduzimali su me i grabili za sebe,uvijek više i jače.
Ti šaptom me moliš da Ti poklonim srce,daruješ mi osmjeh i dijeliš od sebe sve.
Kada ne bi postojao Bog na svijetu,stvarno bih se bojala za Tebe.
Zato Te molim djevojčice,budi u životu oprezna.Posebno budi oprezna sa mnom.

Pozdrav Damama

Drage moje Dame iz Slovenije i Crne Gore,
Želim Vas samo pozdraviti i zahvaliti što se pridružile ostalim čitateljicama ovoga bloga.
Lijepo je što postojite i što ste tu.
Drage moje Dame iz Makedonije,BiH,Srbije i Lijepe moje Hrvatske ,
postajete vjerne čitateljice,činite mi veliko zadovoljstvo.
A Vi drage moje Dame iz USA-a i Canade
Uvijek ste ovdje posebno dobrodošle.
Svima Vama želim Mir,Dobro i puno ljubavi!

Bože moj oprosti nam

Bože moj,
Oprosti mi sve moje slabosti.
Oprosti što sam se tako kasno vratila Tebi.
Oprosti što nisam vjerovala u Tvoju Ljubav i Tvoj plan za mene.
Oprosti svima koji su zloupotrebljavali moje srce i moje tijelo.
Oprosti svima koji su okretali glavu od mene u vremenima kada mi je trebala njihova pomoć.
Oprosti svima koji su zatvarali i zatvaraju svoja srca pred drugima.
Oprosti mojoj biološkoj majci što me nije zjala voljeti i biološkom ocu koji je bio ravnodušan.
Oprosti mojoj mami koja nije željela vjerovati i tati kojemu je bilo važnije obnašanje njegovoga posla.
Oprosti muškarcu koji mi je oduzeo nevinost čitavoga moga bića i koji je prekinuio moje djetinjstvo.
Oprosti mojoj profesorici koja je izgubila hrabrost i svu krivicu prebacila na mene.
Oprosti onoj koja me je zatajila i  napustila me.
Oprosti mojem bivšem mužu jer nije znao što čini.
Bože moj,oprosti nam svima po beskrajnom milosrđu i po svojoj Ljubavi!
Oprosti im Bože moj i ja im danas svima opraštam!

Zlostavljanje

Zlostavljanje je pojam koji se često ne razumije ali se veoma često uporabljuje u svakodnevnom životu.Čitam fonetsko značenje istoznačne eng.riječi:abuse:prevedeno znači psovanje,vrijeđanje,zloupotreba,nepravilna upotreba ali i izopačenost.
Dijelimo ga na fizičko,psihičko i emocionalno zlostavljanje.
Posljedice su kao što vjerojatno znamo introvertiranost,emocionalna nestabilnost,gubitak samopoštovanja,impotencija,sterilitet a često i uzročnik  razno raznih fobija,anksioznih stanja pa i same shizofrenije(cijepanje lićnosti).O fizičkim posljedicama ne bih govorila jer su to vanjski znaci lako uočljivi "golim okom".
Osoba sam koja je doživjela zlostavljanje.I kao djevojčica,i kao udata žena i kasnije  u zrelim godinama.Zovem se Milena Nikolić.
Dugo sam to krila od drugih ljudi.Nisam mogla ni željela razgovarati o tome.Vjerovala sam da postoje osobe koje su predodređene da budu zlostavljane.Vjerovala sam da sam sama kriva i glavni uzročnik tome.Vjerovala sam da sam loša osoba sa veoma slabim karakterom.Sramila sam se sebe i svoje prošlosti.Mislila sam da se to samo meni događa i u filmovima.Dugi niz godina vjerovala sam i da me Bog kažnjava jer volim žene.
Danas,sada, prvi puta javno govorim o tome.Ne mogu više nositi strahove u sebi.I zato sada dijelim sa svima Vama koji dođete na ove stranice svoje veoma intimne trenutke u nadi da ću se se na ovaj način osloboditi svoga straha a i Vas upozoriti na tu temu.
Moje prvo emocionalno zlostavljanje se događalo kada sam bila beba.Rođena sam u veoma nestabilnom studentskom braku.Moja biološka majka me nije željela ali je željela udati se za moga biološkog oca.Nisu živjeli zajedno.On je dijelio stan kod sestre a ona je živjela kod majke.Često me ostavljala i napuštala.Bila sam neishranjena i voma bolesna kada me dala mlađoj sestri svoga muža.
U 9.toj godini sam i sudski bila usvojena.
Usvojena obitelj,otac pravoslavni prote(pok.) i majka(ujna po krvi) nisu radili razliku između mene i svoje kćeri.Bila sam odgajana strogo,u patrijahalno-kršćanskoj obitelji.
U 12.toj godini,kada  nikoga sem mene nije bilo u obiteljskom stanu silovao me je obiteljski prijatelj.
Moja mama nije povjerovala u to.Smatrala je da sam ga ja nečim izazvala.
(već u to vrijeme sam gledala i pomalo se zaljubljivala u školske kolegice,profesorice i rođake)
Izvukla me iz škole u poslala na psihijatrijsko vještaćenje kod kolege u Jankomir gdje sam učila i boravila do kraja školske godine.Ujedno tamo mi je i rečeno po prvi puta da sam njezina usvojena kći.
Po završetku osnovne,upisala sam gimnaziju.Tamo sam se na drugoj godini zaljubila u svoju razrednicu.U trćoj godini gimnazije sam priznala majci da volim žene i da sam zaljubljena u svoju profesoricu.Profesorica je završila na neplaćenom postdiplomskom školovanju u Engleskoj,a ja ponovo na psihijatriji u Jankomiru.Te jeseni se nisam više vratila kući,mojoj obitelji sam bila nepoželjna.Smjestili su me u Đački dom u Opatičkoj(u Zagrebu).
Kada sam napunila 18.tu roditelji su me se odrekli,sudski naravno.Neko vrijeme sam boravila u Prihvatilištu za odrasle u Zagrebu od kuda sam i upisala studij.Tamo upoznala budućeg muža.Izgledao je dobar(ah,kako nas oči znaju prevariti).Rekla sam mu da volim žene.Ponudio mi je zajednički život,mogućnost završetka studija,bolji život.Prihvatila sam.Pola godine je trajala moja radost.Nikada me nije dotakao,bio je pažljiv u svakom pogledu.Zaljubila sam se u djevojku sa koja nije mogla ostati trudna.Stoga sam trudna ostala ja sa mužem.Obećala mi je,bila je starija od mene,da ćemo zajedno živjeti sa našom budućom bebom.On se isprva složio i ponudio mi nastavak svoga prijateljstva.Preselila sam se u stan koji je ona našla za mene,trebala je preseliti se kasnije.Rodila sam.On je došao po mene i javio da je ona otputovala na skijanje sa zaručnikom(?!) i da će se vjenčati kroz pola godine i da svoju kćer nazovem po njoj.Muž me odveo doma sebi.I tada se sve promijenilo.
18 sljedećih godina sam provela u paklu na zemlji.Kada ga nisam slušala slijedile su kazne,vrijeđanja,psovanja,zabrana izlazaka,potajni (zbog djece) udarci,razbijanje arkada,guranje niz stepenice,prijetnje.I onda fizička silovanja,zaređale su trudnoće 1981,1982,1984,1986,1989,1994 i 1996.Znala sam pobjeći od kuće.No on me je uvijek nekako pronalazio i smišljao je još gore kazne.Jednom prilikom me je skoro gurnuo iz jurećeg vlaka,drogom prilikom kada me je doveo "kući" zavezao me je golu na psećji lanac i tako ostavio 7 dana.Napominjem da su djeca bila u drugim sobama i da nisam mogla govoriti jer mi je u usta natrpao krpu i zalijepio flasterom.
Pokušavala sam ga prijaviti na Centar za soc.rad.Tada,nisu postojale sigurne kuće.Žene su me morale same izboriti a ja to nisam bila u stanju.Uvijek sa prijetio da će mi oduzeti djecu,da će me strpati na psihijatrijski odjel gdje će zaboraviti svi da postojim.Što je najgore,pred drugima se činio jako pažljiv prema meni.Što je najgore pomagala mu je u svemu njegova majka.Ja sam bila pažena 24h od 24h.
Filmovi ne prikazuju stvarnost vjerujte mi,ja to dobro znam.Stvarnost,moja stvarnost je bila neuporedivo gora.
Moram sada prekinuti.Nastaviti ću kasnije.I danas  kada je to sve iza mene imam gorak osjećaj u ustima.Oprostite mi.

Kišni dan i ...

Koliko god volim kišu,na neki način me podsjeća na ženu,danas se čudno osjećam.Puštam da vrijeme prolazi i u vremenu pokušavam pronaći sebe.Kao da sam se negdje zagubila u sjećanju.
U sjećanju na jednu davnu godinu 1999-tu..
Bila sam u Splitu,ili bolje rečeno bila sam na Kašljunima,lokalnoj plaži za zaljubljene.
Bila sam puno mlađa i beskrajno zaljubljena u jednu djevojku.I sada kada to pišem osjećam se kao da Vas varam,kao da sebe varam jer zapravo sam bila zaljubljena u Njega(u njoj).
Nosio je prekrasno ime koje i danas često sanjam.Bio je toliko sladak,zaljubljen i beskrajno mi odan.Pisao je prekrasne pjesme isklesane iz svakog našeg trenutka,pogleda,dodira.Bio je ljubavnik mojih snova.Svaki njegov dodit otkrivao je meni neke nove doživljaje,neke nove ekstaze.Bio je jedinstven i neponovljiv i iznad svega bio je moj.Bio je moj razlog zašto i danas ne mogu reći da ne volim muškarce.Ne,jer Njega sam obožavala.
Bila sam ljubomorna na more koje ga je dodrivalo,sunčeve zrake koje su ga grijale.
Satima,danima,mjesecima smo bili zajedno.Vrijeme nije postojalo,postojala je samo ljubav i strast.Ljudi okolo nas nisu mi značili ništa.Važan je bio samo On u Njoj.
A Ona?
Gdje je Ona bila svo to vrijeme?
Ona je bila pored nas,uvijek tamo negdje u dubinama srca.Rijetko je dolazila kao da na neki način nije željela smetati,kao da je dopuštala da On u  Njoj živi i voli,umjesto Nje.
A kada bi došla sve bi se nekako izmijenilo.Svijet je postajao nježniji i još nježniji..do samoga bola.
Prepoznavala sam je po nekoj čudnoj sjeti u očima.Teško sam joj prilazila no bilo je ne zamislivo ne prići joj.Ne prići tim čudessnim očima.Nije puno govorila ali kada je njezin je glas bio tako nježan.
I ako zatvorim oči,vidjeti ću taj Njezin pogled koji će rastvarati i stvarati novu tugu.Tugu koja nikada ne će proći.Njene oči kao da su me uvijek iznova pitale:A ja?Gdje sam Ti ja u svoj ovoj Tvojoj priči?Zar mene ne voliš,ne želiš?
I ja bih joj onda prilazila(ili je to činio On u meni.On, jer ja sam se bojala da ću se rastaviti na tisuće komadića,bojala sam se prići ženi.Bojala sam se da ću bespovratno izgubiti sebe,srce i dušu.
Nema sada više veze.Već davno se nismo srele.Kada je nestala iz moga života shvatila sam da je moja ljubav ostala kod Nje.
Zauvijek.
I danas kada slušam staru francusku pjesmu od Celine Dion koju je Ona donijela u moj život,i danas bih mogla plakati danima.
Oprosti mi ljubavi moja!

Dinnar with Her

I am still up.Didn t go to sleep tonight.I am tired.
Tonight I had imaginary dinner with my Love.We were listening songs from Enya we both loved.She was so beutiful that I couldn t take my eyes from Her.
Te qiero mi amor para siempre.

About.com/Lesbian life

Želim s Vama podijeliti jednu web adresu koja će Vas vjerujem oduševiti kao što je oduševila i mene:

http://forums.about.com/ab-lesbianlife


Tamo će te naći voditeljicu gđu.Kathy Belge i moderatoricu gđu.Melissu Resch.Naravno i mnoštvo drugih prijateljica koje će Vas dočekati širom otvorenih ruku.Između ostalih sam i ja tamo što se podrazumijeva.
Forum ima stvarno veliki broj tema i stalno se moderiraju teme.Naravno,možete tamo započeti i otvoriti svoju neku temu koja Vas  zanima.Otvorene su za svakoga,naravno,potrebno je znanje engleskog jezika.Ono što se ne tolerira na forumu su mržnje,netolerancija i homofobija.
Nadam se da ćemo se naći i tamo!

Moja današnja želja

Poželjela sam jutros da svi živimo u svijetu gdje nema mržnje,ratova,nesloge i neslobode.Gdje se ljudi vole,poštuju i cijene zbog onoga što sami oni jesu,prekrasna bića predodređena da budu ispunjena i da šire Ljubav.
Zamišljeni smo i strvoreni od Beskrajne Ljubavi,pušteni na svijet da ispunimo svoj dio i da se vratimo u vječnost.
Zato učinimo danas svoj dio zadatka,nasmijmo se nekome,poželimo mu-joj dobar dan,pridržimo vrata nekome,ustanimo u tramvaju ili autobusu onome koje je sjedenje potrebnije nego nama,ponesimo dio tereta drugome u ime Ljubavi koju nosimo u sebi.Ne zbog sebe već zato što vjerujemo u ljubav,u ljepše sutra i ne čekajmo da vidimo što će drugi učiniti za nas,učinimo mi to prvi.
Ljubav se ljubavlju vraća.

I do belive

I do belive in God and His endless Love for each and every one of us.
I do belive in freedom of choice for every person regardless of nation,rase,nationality and money income.
I do belive in human rights.
I belive that every person has right and freedom to decide whom is she or he is going to love.
Above all I do belive in love.

Drage moje prijateljice

Sasvim slučajno,jer ja sa informatikom sa još uvijek na "Vi" upala sam u jedan dio u direktoriju bloga u kome sam otkrila da više nisam sama.Dakle,sve Vi koje ste došle na ovaj blog,dobro došla ste.
Stvarno Vam želim ugodan nedjeljni dan i da ste sa osobom koja Vas voli.
Interesantno ima Vas od svagdje pa ovom prilikom  pozdravljam sve Vas iz Hrvatske,BiH,Makedonije,Njemačke,Kanade i Sjedinjenih Američkih Država!

Moja razmišljanja

Nekako od kada sam počela pisati ovej blog stvari se u mome životu dosta kompliciraju.Nisam baš navikla dijeliti svoje misli sa drugima,iako skoro cijeli svoj život pišem dnevnik.Kažem skoro cijeli jer sam prije tri godine uništila sve svoje dnevnike u trenutku svoje velike slabosti.
Iz iskustva znam da je to bila velika greška.Načinjena je kada je djevojka sa kojom sam živjela ušla u moj dnevnik i imala neke dosta neugodne primjedbe vezane za moje snove,želje itd.Možda je bilo najlogičnije da se tada raziđemo.Nismo to učinile.Prolongirale smo našu vezu do nedavno.
Postoji nešto što se zove povjerenje u vezi.Ako postoji odlično,ako ne-definitivno je bolje da se raziđemo što prije to bolje.
Ali ja sam veoma tvrdoglava,koji puta ni sebe samu ne slušam.Kao takva debelo sam plačala svoja iskustva.Ma,što reči,plačam ih i danas.

Latino girl

I have one very special reason why do I like Penelope Cruz.I am not going to share it with you.But I am going to say that I do like her simplisity,wonderful body and some kind of inocense that all latino girls have.Hmm,by my opinion of course.Oh yes and I adore her passion and her beutiful smile.

Hmmm...

Whole day today I was thinking about Her.She came into my life in one second.She

Proud to be a lesbian

Whole my life I knew I am different from other girls.
Since I was very young I felt atracted to a girls.I loved spending time with them,talking,walking even writing to them.All my dreams,wishes and desires were conected with girls.
When I grew up I was more in love with girls,women.
I know I was different and I was proud of being different.
Althou I did had many problems with first parents and all others ragarding my love for woman.Somehaw I married.Theise days I was young fool in love with my  best girl-friend.

She

I fall in love with the most beutiful girl in the world.
It looks like everything is different.Whole month I am spending every minute with Her,most every.
What shall tell you about Her?
Well,she is better side of me.She is wonderful,tender,honest.
She is my caring friend,one and only soulmate and above all I am deeply in love with Her.
She changed my life in so many ways that I can t even describe.
She is my dream come true.She s my fantasy.
I can t find the right way to express my feelings to Her.